[#593] Dear Agony

Leave me alone
God let me go
I’m blue and cold
Black sky will burn
Love pull me down
Hate lift me up
Just turn around
There’s nothing left

Breaking Benjamin, ♫Dear Agony

When the idea for this blog first came into my brain I wasn’t 100% sure how I wanted to go about it or how it would be received; I had to keep in mind that this is predominantly my space and I choose what is posted here. Very little do I like to talk about myself in any capacity even though I’m told that it is a Leo trait to be about yourself.

This site has always been about emotions in every degree you can think of. One day I might post something like I am today and the next post could be funny, light hearted, romantic or even *gasp* sexy. That’s just how this journey called life goes and one cannot exist without the other and that is what I personally believe.

The song I’ve chosen, “Dear Agony” could be construed many different ways. It can be looked at as someone with depression and suicidal thoughts or it could be thought of as someone dealing with an addiction/substance abuse problems and are seeking a means to pull themselves out of their predicament. The way it is personalized for me is that I deal with pain on a consistent basis due to chronic back issues that I have had for over 10 years that have no way of ever being normal. In a sense I feel like I’m slowly drowning sometimes with the knowledge that down the road it will likely reach a point that I don’t want to think about and that is what lead me to setting up the scene as I did.

Somehow I have willed myself to stay off of any mainstream painkillers but some days getting out of bed feels unbearable but I don’t want to be confined to staying in one spot all the time. I’m not in a position where a surgical procedure is required and even if it were a possibility the chance of it making my situation worse is too risky for me to consider.

This song resonates for me because I constantly wish to be in a place where I was before all of this started but I know it isn’t possible. I get through by being creative in a virtual world that I can do whatever I please and the photos I take that turn into these blogs are something that keeps my mind off of everything else. I don’t necessarily like putting stuff like this out in the world because I’m not a martyr, I’m just a person that struggles like everyone else. Perhaps it is something that when someone reads it they think “This person is like me, they understand the kind of thing I’m going through”. This struggle has put me in some dark places but I refuse to let it pull me in completely.

I may not enjoy sharing pieces of my life in detail but I don’t regret it either.

Okay…so I’m done with the heavy stuff now and I can get into the fun part of the blog which is about events, products, and the creation process and not necessarily in that order. I’m not quite sure how I managed to pull off getting this image to be even remotely close to how I saw it in my head but I can say that trying some new things might have helped.

Last year I entertained the thought of giving the Black Dragon viewer a try because many of my peers were doing some really cool things with it. I installed it and for me it was complicated enough that I said to hell with it and let the idea go that it might help my work out. It wasn’t until a few nights ago that I chose to give it another try and the worst that could happen is that I get frustrated and ditch it again. This time around though I watched helpful tutorials and took some of the confusion out of it and modeled my settings after the ones used by one of my favorite pose makers who uses it for their photos.

I’d like to know if you think if it’s made a difference?

I feel very fortunate that Modulus has quite a few releases at various events at the moment because I can keep my hair game on point. The Men’s Department is where the “Troy Hair” can be found and I remember when the product ad first showed up on Facebook, my friend Jason, said that he felt everyone had a stuck up Troy in their lives. I can say that I’ve never had the pleasure or displeasure of knowing anyone named Troy personally. So Jason if the Troy you knew wasn’t on your favorite list you can just look at this photo and take satisfaction to know I drowned him! (That’s a bit much but my humor is odd sometimes).

With the angle of the camera and the way the hair naturally flows it gives the effect of movement in the water as longer hair does when you are swimming. It’s not always easy when going for realism to get something to work without manipulation but I choose not to. Manipulating anything (especially products from a store I blog for) wouldn’t be right but luckily for me with Modulus I don’t have to.

Modulus – Troy Hair

  • 100% original “nex-gen” alpha mesh
  • 5 color tone packs + integrated tinting HUDs to choose from
  • 40 color FATPACK also for sale
  • Exclusive to TMD until 02/27/19

For the outfit, I’m wearing some items that I had in my closet and I’m super certain have blogged in the past. Usually I tend not to go into extensive detail about those. That’s how I feel about items that are at least more than 2 or 3 months old (in this case at least a year). To be honest I give the most coverage to my brands and events that have new things out and also if there’s something that I find outside of that which excites me then I’ll make that a main feature as well.

This photo would not have been possible without the “Serene Pool” skybox from Paparazzi. This highly detailed indoor pool room comes complete with materials and lighting to give it a very realistic look for photography and it looks even better in the Black Dragon viewer with the right settings. There were actually several other ideas I had for this skybox but ultimately the photo that resulted from this shoot was my main idea. There’s nothing saying that I can’t use it again in the future for another blog taken from the vantage point from above the water right?

On that note, I think it’s time for me to wrap this blog post up so I can get it out into the universe as I am super proud of how the picture turned out. It may be the idea of it being the first one I’ve ever done with the Black Dragon viewer but I feel like it has a different feel to it then some of my previous work and time will tell the story of if I stick with this method or go back to what I was done.

Now I’m off to go crank some tunes and put a new look together for a little idea I have for the next blog. For all of you out there that might have experience with any of the feelings this blog might have brought about, we’re all in this together and we just have to do whatever is necessary to live our best lives. Take care until the next one everyone.

Kindest regards,

Brennan


POSE: Nexus (MP) – Hypoxia Pose Set

SKYBOX: Paparazzi (Store / MP) – Serene Pool

HAIR: Modulus (Store / MP) – Troy Hair @ TMDNEW

TANKTOP: Boo’s Designs – Rob Tank Top ~ Ribbed ~
JEANS: INVICTUS – Jeans Strong 17

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[#417] When You’re On Easy Street

And we’re breaking out the good champagne
We’re sitting pretty on the gravy train
And when we sing every sweet refrain repeats…

Easy Street” – The Collapsable Hearts ClubListen

For my second Halloween post I thought I would bring some people back down memory lane (which may make them a bit terse) by choosing a theme that was a part of one of the most mind shattering moments of season 7 of The Walking Dead. The dreaded song that kept repeating over and over to torture and try to break Daryl Dixon. After the episode aired the song went viral and probably not for the better. So in my own crazy way I’m bringing it back to remind you!

While I probably should have saved the theme for an actual zombie apocalypse type scene, I just couldn’t pass up how quirky the song was for the feel I was putting together for this shoot. With a crazy murderous fowl on the loose, it certainly made a great combination in my mind.

For this session, I took a lot of different photos with various angles and lighting but what you are seeing on this blog entry are the best of the best after minor post-processing. I don’t usually try to overdo anything because then it completely changes the composition of what was originally intended.

Avi-Glam has kindly provided two different products (a skin and eyes) for me to feature and give my thoughts on. The entry also features many items from the current (and still open) TMD event which has about a week or so left before they close it off to begin switching things out for the next round.

This entry also features goods from Men Only Monthly and The Epiphany which has some really great Gacha machines to play with exclusive items to collect before they are gone for good once the round is over.

I hope you’ve enjoyed checking out my second submission for the Halloween 2017 series of photos. I still have more to come in the next few posts (including a collaboration that I am extremely excited about). Another adventure in the books and please be sure to check out the styling credits below. Get your shopping on and I’ll see you again soon.

Onto the next conversation…

HAIR+elua+ Quinn
HEADLeLutka – Andrea v 3.1
EYES⊱ AG. Natural Eyes @ Shiny ShabbyNEW

6 new eye colors are available for you to take a peak at during the newly opened round of Shiny Shabby. The applier HUD (and I’ll list compatibility here in a second) with some of the eyes gives you the option to choose which eye you wish to color or you can apply it to both eyes as well as what pupil size. Mixing and matching is possible which I think can be unique in many instances.

Compatible with: Catwa, LeLutka, and Omega (as well as included mesh eyeballs)

FACEAG. Noah Skin

This skin is for the LeLutka Andrea bento head. Noah has a youthful appearance with 8 skin tones to suit most people’s requirements. The applier HUD has 3 brow color options (along with a non-brow option). There is the option to buy an accompanied shape as well if you choose not to use your own.

BODYBelleza – Jake

SWEATER⊱ Lenox Wool Sweater @ TMDNEW

A very nicely detailed sweater which is something I’d definitely wear in the colder months as I am from a part of the US that tends to get some rather special weather during the winter months. Even though in the virtual world hot/cold doesn’t tend to factor, a lot of people treat their surroundings just like their own real locations. The cool thing about this sweater is you can wear it along with the coat that is also available at TMD this month.

Compatible with: Aesthetic, Belleza, Signature and TMP.

PANTS⊱ ::K:: Levi Jodhpurs Herringbone Tweed-Gray @ TMDNEW

Sometimes not featuring a product right away can be a good thing. I had not used these for anything right when I bought them at the opening of this months TMD. I received a message with an update from Kitt Ragu himself and we had a nice little conversation. It’s those kinds of things that will be a reason that I will continue purchasing and blogging ::K:: branded items. Kitt took the time to personally send out the update to those who purchased them. Such a class act!

These pants come with two types (one of them a shorter leg length for use with boots I am imagining) and also has a belt as well.

Compatible with: Belleza, Signature and SLink.

BOOTS::ROC:: Martens Boot! Mid

BACKDROPtaikou / gaien market backdrop

This backdrop scene is really a phenomenal build, with great details and textures. It was a part of the previous months round of Kustom9 and I purchased it towards the end of the round so I was not able to use it before they closed it to begin setting up for this month’s round. Personally I feel like it helped build the kind of gritty late night atmosphere or someone closing up shop for the night only to be met by a creepy presence.

JACKET⊱ COMPLEX / JACKET / W-B @ M.O.MNEW

This lightweight hooded parka comes in 6 different colors (worn in gray color). Two bonus colors are included in a fatpack that also has a HUD in which you can change the color of various parts of the jacket to your desired look.

Compatible with: Belleza, Signature and SLink male mesh bodies.

JEANS⊱ INVICTUS – Button Jeans – Jeans @ M.O.MNEW

Nicely made basic roll-up jeans that come in 6 denim colors (which the model is wearing the regular blue denim color). A fatpack is also available if you like all of the colors and want to get them at a discounted price.

Compatible with: Belleza, Signature, SLink, and TMP male mesh bodies. Also included is a regular fitmesh size for classic avatars.

SHOES-NOeditiON- SuperStar – Yellow

MASK⊱ *katat0nik* (yellow) Cockface Mask @ The EpiphanyNEW

When I first saw the advertisment for this Gacha at The Epiphany, I thought it was one of the oddest and most unique things I’ve come across in a while and just had to find a way to incorporate it into a scene. The particular head I used reminds me a lot of the well known to baseball fans “San Diego Chicken” mascot…even though it is meant to be a rooster, it’s still fowl (or is that foul? I kid I kid).

BAT⊱ Inkside – Barbed Wire Baseball Bat ♯ Marketplace

This mesh prop comes with an automatic shoulder lean pose but it also works with other poses that includes baseball bats. This item is clearly inspired by “Lucille” the she-devil sidekick to the nefarious Negan of The Walking Dead. This was a pretty cool marketplace find to help pull together a strange scene.

IE – Choices (3)
Del May – Kneel Pose
[ t.s.t ] Slugger Pose Pack ♯ Marketplace

[#329] I’m Waking Up

Hey, my life is real great feel I’m well on my way
to my dreams coming true and I’m getting to do it with you.
And it feels so nice when the people sing along
they’re singing along with the banjo

Take It All Back 2.0” –  Judah And The Lion  ♫Listen

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After shopping trips to The Men’s Dept, Men Only Monthly, the SIGNATURE Event, and the newly opened Lost & Found, I have got a very cool and casual look to share with you this time around.

A few items have returned from last time like the Go&See “Jayden” skin that you can get right now at Men Only Monthly. I just really like how it looks with the Catwa “Daniel” Bento head. Sometimes with appearance you can’t help but to go back to your faves. Sometimes I do change things up just to provide a variety with my looks but when you feel comfortable you tend to use it more frequently.

My other Men Only Monthly item are the “Ripped Jeans” by INVICTUS. They come fitted for Nyramith Aesthetic, [SIGNATURE] Gianni, SLink Physique, Standard Fitted, and TMP body types. Wearing them with my Gianni body was pretty effortless but you still have to tick most of your leg alphas in the HUD but nothing complicated to deal with. They also come in several choices from your light denims to your darker and black so depending on your style or mood, you can find the right one.

{COLD-ASH} has a new product available at the SIGNATURE Event. That’s right, you can get the CONNOR long sleeved Polo shirt which is available right now. I really like the style of this shirt, it’s very casual and would be very comfortable to wear to just about any social gathering. There are 8 colors to choose from but I tend to have a hard time with making a choice so I am glad that I have the entire classic pack. Besides the Gianni fitted shirt, you also get fits for standard, SLink Physique, and TMP bodies. The best thing about this shirt is that you also have the option for a slim waist or a wider waist (for those of you who like baggier shirts as I do).

Tableau Vivant is at The Men’s Dept with the Oliver hair. It’s a very nice mid-length hair in which there are three different color packs or the option to buy all of them for a discounted price. I chose to go with the Naturals II set and add a bit of salt and pepper to give a little more mature look.

Now onto the newest round of Lost & Found, which opened for their January/February round on the 22nd. MESANGE is offering the “Melancholy Eyes” which have a total of 15 color iris’ and come with the standard mesh eyes. The HUD allows you to change the size of the pupils and also has options for OMEGA and Genesis Lab appliers. I really that there are options for the size of the pupils because not everyone likes to have huge eyes. It is becoming more and more of a standard option recently and I am certainly grateful that MESANGE has picked it up.

It’s time for you all to get your shopping on and pick up these great items or any of the other great products at these events. Maybe I’ll see you out there. Until the next time we meet up here for more fashion, stay stylish fellas! Now onto the credits!!!

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HAIR⊱ Tableau Vivant \\ Oliver Hair – Naturals II ≠ ☆NEW☆ @ TMD
HEAD⊱ CATWA – Daniel (Bento) ≠ ☆NEW☆ @ Mainstore
EYES⊱ MESANGE – Melancholy Eyes (1) ≠ ☆NEW☆ @ Lost & Found
EYEBROWSClef de Peau – v.30 (Black)
FACE⊱  Go&See * Jayden  * Pale ~ ≠ ☆NEW☆ @ M.O.M
BODY[SIGNATURE] Gianni – Body – v3.1

SHIRT⊱ {COLD-ASH} CONNOR Long Sleeve Polo Shirt (Classic) ≠ ☆NEW☆ @ SIGNATURE Event
JEANS⊱ INVICTUS – Ripped Jeans ≠ ☆NEW☆ @ M.O.M
SHOES//Ascend// Triple Monk Shoes – Black

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Le Poppycock *La Di Da* A (Play Me A Memory)

[#197] The Only Card I Need Is

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Pushing up the ante, I know you’ve got to see me
Read ’em and weep, the dead man’s hand again!

One of the main themes around this blog is music and how each story that is told within the pictures here contains elements from them, even the title is associated with a song. This particular entry is dedicated to the life and music of one Ian “Lemmy” Kilmister of the band, Motorhead. Many years have his gravelly voice echoed on various music playing devices in homes across the world.

Sadly, the world lost one of the most unique icons in music. A few days ago, Lemmy learned that he had an advanced form of cancer and within two days was gone. He will be remembered for his hard hitting style, and hard living lifestyle which many figured would consume him long before he reached the age of 70, which didn’t stop him from going out there and putting on a show.

I know you’re out there now somewhere, driving someone crazy and looking awesome with that sideburn/stache combo that you gave the name to. Thank you for all the memories that you’ve given so many music fans. May you rest peacefully sir.

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HAIRno.match_ ~ NO_ACTION ~ All COLORS
FACIAL HAIRNo.MINAL – Zangief Black Beard
HEAD⊱ [AK] Pablo Mesh Head // @ M.O.M //NEW
EYES.ID. – Sunset Eyes FATPACK
BODYSLink – Physique MALE Mesh Body Release 1.2
HANDSSLink AvEnhance Hands Male v2.2 – Cigarette/Relaxed
FEETSLink AvEnhance Male Feet v2.1
TATTOO⊱ !BaaaH! Store – Ace of Spades Tattoo // @ M.O.M //NEW

JEANS⊱ INVICTUS –  Open Jeans / Dark // @ Marketplace
SHOES[The Forge] Strider Plus (Black)

BRACELETApple May Designs – Forged Cuffs (Steel)
CIGARETTE⊱ FNKY! Cigarette II // @ Marketplace

MOTORCYCLEKalopsia – Crimson Saints – Motorbike

POSE* S O R G O – Aah (D)

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The Ace Of Spades” – MotorheadListen/View

[#137] South Side

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“Where there’s love and darkness
and my sidearm…”

    Project Unlimited, the quarterly event where designers display one of a kind items that have a set number to sell is just about in the books. There’s about a day left where you can check out and see what kind of items you can take home that are unique and have a small number. I’ve managed to find a few goodies here like the .Reckless. Graves tattoo and the Damselfly Joey Hat/Hair combination. I’ve combined that with the AMERIE Shorts and Leggings combo and the V-Spot Shadow Runners which you can find at the current round of Men Only Monthly that just got under way. Check out those two great events while they last and pick up some really cool gear but you don’t have to take my word for it.

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     BRENNAN

SKIN: Clef de Peau – Liam Base T2 Standard Skin {@The Ross Fair} +NEW+
EYES: IKON Odyssey Eyes – Nymph
EARS: AITUI – Ear System: Gen 4, Naked
HANDS: SLink AvEnhance Hands Male v2.1 – Relaxed / Victory
EYEBROWS: Clef de Peau – Eyebrows 10 Blondes
HAIR: *~*Damselfly*~*Joey Mixed Pack {@Project Limited} +NEW+
FACIAL HAIR: Clef de Peau – Beard 3 Blonde
TATTOO: .Reckless. – Graves {@Project Limited} +NEW+

SHORTS/LEGGINGS: AMERIE M – Shorts w Leggings (Advisary)
SHOES: V-Spot // Shadow Runners {@M.O.M} +NEW+

RINGS: INVICTUS – Mesh Ring King

GUN: DESIGN55 – Revolver Gun {@Marketplace}

POSE: Unorthodox Poses – Right Time Pack (05) {@The Showroom} +NEW+

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    ASHLENE

HEAD: LeLutka Mesh Head-STELLA (Body and Face Appliers Available In-Store)
BODY: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
EYES: IKON Odyssey Eyes – Armor
HAIR: (NO) French Braid Pigtails – Blondes {@C88} +NEW+
TATTOO: -Endless Pain Tattoos- Equilibrium (Maitreya Applier)

SHIRT: (TSAD) Basic White Slvls/Shirt {@Marketplace}
SHORTS: Blueberry – Cossy – Denim Ripped Shorts – Blue
BOOTS: BAX Regency Boots Black Leather

PIERCINGS: [EY:NO] Dramatic Piercing (Silver) (No Longer Available)

POSE AND GUN: *FN* Janie’s Gun {@Marketplace}

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South Side” – Moby ft. Gwen Stefani {Listen/View}

Your Scream Is Burning Through My Veins [#84]

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“Driving me under
leaving me out there…”

{The Look}

SKIN: Clef de Peau – Chad:T2 Regular Skin
EYES: IKON Hope Eyes – Sky
EARS: [MANDALA] -Omimi- Stretched Ears Plug (Hole Size 1)
HANDS: SLink AvEnhance Hands Male – Relax
BEARD: – EG – Facial Hair Chops Spiked Strap {Marketplace}
BEARD: Unorthodox Tuff Clean Beard
HAIR: MINA – Knut – Black *COMING SOON TO MAINSTORE*
TATTOO: DAPPA – Dynasty Tattoo. *NEW* {@Fashion Fair 2015}

SHOULDER SHIRT: INVICTUS – Shirtless / Tshirt  Simple Black
JEANS: ::LikeA:: DOUBLE WAIST DENIM  DW603
SHOES: [BLK2.0] ZANOCCI White Python *NEW* {@TMD}

POSE: Vestige Poses – Dangerous VI (30) *COMING SOON*

{The Influence}

Sooner Or Later” – Breaking Benjamin {Listen/View}